It's been a while since my last update and I don't know where to start.

Life has been,...well...amazing.  It never ceases to amaze me with the lessons I learn each day, and the people I let into my life. 

I have opened up more to others in this past year, than I have previous years since I moved here to New York.  To be honest, most people don't know about my life before I started ninth grade...except for the small bits about me living in other countries/states.  I have changed so much as a person that when I look back...I don't recognize who I even was.


A loser

A geek

A loner

Attitude

Mean

Angry

Disruptive

Eating disorder

Social disorder

pretty much damaged

I guess, in a way, I am ashamed of who I was and I bury the old Amanda underneath the massive mountains of layers I shed to become the one I am today.   A person who I am so happy with.  Slowly...slowly I am learning to trust people again [even though it has taken close to 5 years] and slowly I am letting them into my life, something I have kept closely guarded for a very very long time.

Mahh, I sound so god damn emo.

Home is good, home is great, home is extremely boring.  I can not wait until the time I return to Plattsburgh, and actually do something with my life.   To end this extended time of boorish nature, I have taken it upon myself to throw a party.  I don't know when it's going to happen, but it's going to happen soon.   I just have to notify the correct people, get money for alcohol, get the alcohol [which won't be a problem, since I am...well...a Fio Rito], and let the fun run its course.


I miss my friends.  A lot.  Which is funny, because I don't naturally miss people.   I can't wait until I move into our suite...which is probably the worst idea we have ever come up with...and just live again.   I feel so blahh here at home...I do nothing practically every day.

Except dye my hair of course.

It is now a new color!   I had gone to the store the other day intending to purchase the color I have been currently using, only to find that it was the only hair dye that was sold out.   Great huh?  Well...after two minutes of debating whether or not I should go with a new dye, I finally concluded that even though this shade is amazing amazing amazing AMAZING like woah, I needed a change.

My hair is still red, but a darker red.  More ruby in it's color, and dark....really dark.   Like...kinda brownish red dark.

I guess I like it, I'm still not sure.  

I guess that concludes my life up to now, this very moment.   I'll update as soon as I can...or as soon as something exciting happens in my life.





PEACE

Canada = Best time everrrrr

I must say that starting Thursday of last week, this week has been by far the best of my entire one and a half semesters up here in P-burgh.

I have no idea what I would do without my friends, especially the "7 degrees" (hahahahahahaaaaa)

Somehow we've gotten closer within these few days, and I can't wait to be rooming with them next semester.  Our suite (crossing fingers) is going to be THE place to be.  I'm so friggin excited.



.....just a random thought. 

I am,

an enigma.  or...enigmatic if that is the right term.

I came to this conclusion while taking my third hit off of Wilson's bowl last night, feeling the slight tickle as smoke filled up my lungs.  I'm not going to lie, it was a pretty good feeling...

...being high and all.



I've always wanted to try it. Just so see what the whole hype was, you know?  It's not an amazing feeling like some people say, it was just...i don't know....relaxing.  


Jess and Ju-Ju made fun, saying that I was one of those people who smoke and just sit there...chill and all.  Funny, because it's true.


Ehh, I don't see where this post is going.  I started it last night but went to bed because smoking made me tiredddd.    I'm going to end it here.

So it's been four years that I've had this livejournal.

Four years beginning tomorrow.


Wow





Happy anniversary

I live           I laugh           I love           I sing           I dance          I smile       




Therefore, I am

I should have dropped this class when I had the chance

       le sigh

Oh well...the world moves on and I feel oddly happy today.


Can't wait to go out tonight and drown these three days

I need a little fun  :)